Life is a miraculous gift. The process of bringing new life into the world just utterly fascinates and humbles me. The fact that a human can grow within the womb from just two cells into a full little human, is a sheer miracle! Despite this, it may seem commonplace since there are humans everywhere! But I’ve never taken it for granted, as the struggle of conceiving or creating a family is real for many.

There are some beautiful people in this world who, for various reasons, are unable to have babies on their own. But we live in an amazing time where with the help of ART, Integrative Fertility Medicine, egg and sperm donation, surrogacy and a deeper understanding of human fertility and pregnancy…many people who want to have a baby of their own are now able to do so.

After our own initial struggles with fertility, I was blessed to bring four amazing little people to this world. Being pregnant with each of them was an experience I cherished and thoroughly enjoyed. Yes, there were discomforts and unpleasant sensations through the journey, but it all paled in comparison to the amazing sense of purpose and deeply sacred task I felt I was gifted and tasked with.

And yet, there came a time I felt our family was complete. I was so grateful to have one baby, when I thought we weren’t going to be able to have any! And we were so freaking blessed to have 3 more after that! But four of them is abundant enough for me.

However, there still lingered an intuition that for some reason this fertility journey was not yet done for me. For about a year I kept having the same dream. In the dream I would be doing a pregnancy test, and it was always very clearly positive. Yet, I had no desire to have more babies…and it would be next to impossible seeing as my husband is snipped! I also kept waking up in the night to a baby crying, when there were no more babies in my home. And on a few occasions to a small child calling out to me, when none of mine had called out. For some reason, whether it was biological, spiritual, or a combo, I felt a deep craving to be pregnant again. Not in a dramatic sort of way. Just in a knowing kind of way. But I also knew that this baby wasn’t for me. I just didn’t know how it would all play out.

Thanks to my dear friend Nathan, of the egg donation and surrogacy consultancy Proud Fertility, I was presented with the opportunity to become a surrogate and knew this was the way to manifest this intuitive experience that had been lingering around me for over a year. It was also so powerful to realize that while I had been having this dream of pregnancy, a family out there was also dreaming their own dream of having a baby. And now, we had met and come together to make this dream a reality.

The process was not immediate. It took time to think and carefully take into account all the considerations. Plus, there was a thorough health screening too. In the end, everything lined up perfectly and a sweet baby embryo was transferred in late July…and to add to the miracle of it all, decided to stick and stay put!

As a surrogate I am the space for which this new precious life can come into this world and be a much awaited gift for their family. I am so excited to be a part of this journey and so excited for them, as they patiently await their bundle of joy!

Just as with most things in life, there are ups and downs, sunny and rainy days and moments of darkness where you have to trust the light will come again. This pregnancy has not been without its challenging moments but, overall, it has been an amazing experience. And I have to say, I am definitely reaping the rewards of my Meditation practice to stay joyful, grounded, calm and clear.

This could not have been possible without the amazing and unconditional support of my family, especially my husband. I love you and am forever grateful to have you in my life. And I so appreciate all my awesome friends who have also been so supportive and encouraging, I love you all

I am totally open to chatting and answering any questions, so long as the conversation remains respectful.

Some common ones so far have been:

Q. Is the baby yours?

A. No, it was an embryo created with a donor egg and the Dad’s sperm. Pretty awesome right!?

Q. Do you know the family?

A. I do now! It started off with a profile and now we are super close and are creating a bond for life. For privacy reasons I am not able to say more about the IP (intended parent(s)).

Q. When are you due and will you have the baby here?

A. April. And yes, baby will be born here.

Q. Do you worry you’ll be too attached to give the baby away?

A. Absolutely not. This baby has never been mine to keep. I am not giving it away, I am giving it back. I definitely do not want more babies to raise in my home! I am so excited to see and watch the baby grow in the loving care of their family.

If you have any more send them my way!

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